Baptism Cont’d

Ok, so the night before my baptism, I was on the phone with my pastor for A LONG WHILE, and I did prepare a thoroughly thought baptism speech…

But …. I was so frightened on the night of my baptism (I’m scared of H2O, pools, lakes, oceans etc.) that I blanked out.

Ah, here is my planned baptism speech ……..

“I came to faith in the November of 2011. That was my freshman year of high school…I have to be honest with ya, the process of coming to faith was not easy; it was actually extremely painful …. At that time I was on a white hospital bed in the ER at UofM’S C.S. Mott Children’s Hospital, not knowing whether I will make it past midnight…The CT scans showed dark spots in my brain, and my heart rate was abnormally high, and aside from that, I COULDN’T EVEN WALK….I thought to myself: Oh, what a pity for my life to end in such way … I was doing just fine 1.5 weeks ago … and now I am not even able-bodied……. A flash came to my mind 1 second later that my best friend, Lydia, is a devoted Christian….She told me that God answers all prayers……So, uncertain about whether I’ll die in the next second, I prayed to God for the first time, asking him to grant me a life, if he really exists and can hear me ….And, here I am, living gracefully under God’s glory. Although Lydia couldn’t make it to here today because she’s all tied up with her busy schedule, I still want to dedicate my gratitude to her and thank her for being God’s messenger to me.”

Here is my full baptism video, the courtesy of Tyler’s ! I’m extremely terrified of water, but I did it for God, and I’m proud.

https://photos.google.com/share/AF1QipM8EOmLkKYQTFWIGTdIfGYRkAAqPYr2XLFZJccl0UuYO_0LsgH5P2Rg09InQy-1rg/photo/AF1QipMSReYbjszQ9mlQ6c9tY7f7IonR3kbQYuttX-Jg?key=bVBHZFBtNW0xUE5STnh2N3ZYRThqTG4zanNIcEhn

Thanks to Pastor Nino for comforting me and baptizing me even when I was contemplating 3000000 ways to fight him!!

Trigger Warning

So I visited NHS yesterday after school, and needless to say, it was amazing to re-connect with teachers and friends .. Something i wasn’t expecting happened also happened …. To sum it up, I wasn’t given a trigger warning before my most painful memory of high school was brought up by my teacher … No it wasn’t a shady thing; No, nothing was dark or immoral … If you didn’t know me in my high school freshmen year, then you don’t know about this ……. … So … I am writing about this experience ….because I know if I face it and let it out, I’ll be able to grow … That’s what God has been saying to me …… So here we go …

In the Thanksgiving of 2011, which is the fall of my high school freshmen year … I got really ill …. like super ill … Actually ‘ill’ is an understatement … I was dying … My heart rate was at 119: a number that I will never forget … There were dark spots from my fMRI scan …. Doctors at St. John said, “Well … We aren’t sure if this is cancer …. Our equipment is outdated, so you are to be given a chance to be transferred to either UofM’s hospital or the Detroit Medical Center ……” My dad, without hesitation, claimed a spot at C.S. Mott Children’s hospital …. and that was my first experience with the university I currently attend…..I first encountered the University of Michigan through being a patient and dying at its children’s hospital …. like seriously, this is still the biggest “what the fuck” moment in my life so far …

When my high school Japanese teacher told me that her initial impression of me was that of cuteness and fragility…When the high school Spanish teacher, whom I never had as a teacher, still remembers both my face and name from helping my Japanese teacher wheel me into the elevator in 9th grade …… when my Japanese teacher proudly formally introduced me to her …. When she said they’ve been talking about me throughout these years … A lot of memories, good and bad, ugly and pretty, rushed into me …….

So I’m gonna start with the ugly to get it over with the fastest …. A lot of bullies from high school …. These jerky boys who had nothing to do were bothering the hell out of me … They questioned the truthfulness of my illness and was spreading rumors that I am able to walk but is just choosing to stay on a wheelchair to get attention …. I got really indignant over those comments because back then, I cared about the wrong stuff .. I cared about other people’s shitty comments toward me … It wasn’t until knowing God had I known that nobody’s comments matters besides mine, so hallelujah for that !! Needless to say, not being able to walk was painful, too … Having to be in a wheelchair and get pushed around actually made me less human-like; I felt like a tool instead of a human-being …….

Butttt, there are bads and goods to everything, so I’m gonna move on to the good things !! The harsh comments from the bullies actually motivated me to practice walking, and in 2 weeks I was out of the wheelchair !!! Woah !!! What a miracle !!!! It was near the Christmas break of my high school freshman year, and by then, i was able to walk, although very shakily !! I was so freaking gosh darn proud of myself !!!! Another one of the good things is that a lot of people around me, including my Japanese teacher: Mrs. Rosen, the Spanish teacher that I never had as an instructor: Ms. Schaefer and every faculty and staff at Novi, aided me in not only getting around but cared for my mental issues as well ….. The most important lesson though, is God’s love. It was on the hospital bed of C.S. Mott’s had I prayed to God for the first time … At that time I wasn’t a believer, so I did it with the mentality of: I don’t know if God is real; I don’t think I believe in him, but since it seems that I’m about to die, why not give it a try ??? I prayed on my hospital bed, “Dear God, if you really exist, hear me out …. I want to live …. If that wish can be made possible, I’ll use the rest of my life to honor you…”

The end of the story is: I lived on, and I am praying on. Hallelujah Jesus is the best !!!!!!!!

Intervarsity SWAG

Dear God and universe, thank you so much for bringing together the Intervarsity Christian Fellowship family at the diag this afternoon. I had the most amazing time connecting with and meeting new believers. It’s so amazing to see people from my high school to be at the stands handing out flyers. My faith in the Lord was strengthened and I’m so thankful to have volunteered at the stands to represent ICF. God is the greatest, and shall i meet and inspire more believers of Christ’s. Thank you; thank you; thank you !!!!

God is the Greatest !!!

So after overcoming a long and weary jet lag and a long and weary viral infection I went back to church today !!!!! It feels so amazing to re-connect with my fellow believers at H2O church, in Ann Arbor and in America.

Because the Rackham buidling is closed for holidays, we had our first service at the union. WOW SO MUCH SWAGGG AND FUN TO CATCH UP WITH ALL OF MY FRANDS.

Ok, I’m gonna shift my casual YOLOSWAG tone back to my formal tone now.

My pastor, Nino Guarisco, shared a very reflective statement with all of us this morning, and whether you are a believer, no matter how old you are, it is a statement for you to reflect on.

“The type of friends that you make and the level of priority you place on your relationship with Jesus Christ will determine the type of person you will become while at the University of Michigan (and at any place).”

I read somewhere that by just looking at the 5 closest friends that one has, any person can tell his future prospects. I have a lot to say on this, but because of privacy reasons, I’m not gonna share anything on this blog. I’m just gonna leave it here that if you choose to surround yourself with positivism, your whole life is going to be positive, while if you surround yourself with negativity, most of your life is going to be negative.

In the end, a huge “Thank You” to God for bringing together my fellow believers at H2O to worship under one roof!! It’s amazing to see your light shine upon us and shall we love one another forever !!! Thank you; thank you; thank you !!!