Today I have found out a (not so) surprising piece of news, a friend of mine has depression. You may wonder why it isn’t surprising to me, and I’m just gonna say: I know stuff, 😉 I had a feeling that this girl is someone whom I can help, this girl is powerful, this girl is worth helping. and that’s why I opened up first.
She said she’s lost, confused and hopeless. She said she’s been depressed since stepping on the American soul for college. She said she feels invalidated after her ex-boyfriend broke up with her to be with another girl. She said she doesn’t know the meaning of life. She said she doesn’t feel any sense of belonging. She said she doesn’t fit in well with the international, Chinese community. She said she’s not confident. She said she is too dependent on relationships. She said she needs someone to tell her that she’s great.
I responded, “You are finding you way; you are not alone; you made the right decision to let go of your past, toxic relationship; you are the meaning of your life; you are where you belong; most of the international, Chinese community is utilitarian, and I don’t like that, so I’m distancing myself from these people; you are intelligent, gorgeous and sweet, you are everything a girl can dream of; you don’t need a man to validate you since you can validate yourself; I will be your sunshine and enlighten you. I love you”
So yeah, I’m working with this beautiful, intelligent lady !!! I feel so happy that God is bringing me exactly what I wished for: finding people worth helping and helping them. I’m so thankful to be her light; I’m so thakful to be God’s light. Amen. Amen.
After a long and drowsy calculus 3 lecture this morning, I almost fell asleep but didn’t *insert applause and praise here* After class I decided to go to office hours to get clarifications from lecture notes or maybe just finish the Gateway exam at MATLAB (i got the gateway date wrongfully so nvm.) Just as I was frustrated over not being able to find a GSI, I randomly walked into this professor: Paul’s or Dr. Kessenich’s office whom I thought was a 215 GSI’s. And oh my god, how nice and sweet is he !!! He not only clarified my confusions but gave me a lesson on love as well !!! He saw me not as a student but as a friend (he told me I’m a friend, so …. YAY !!!! Me is happy LOL,) that’s so cuteee!!! Below is a portion of our conversation that made no sense but made us both extremely happy!!
“Actually my boyfriend is a computer science major, so he knows calc 3 really well, I can ask him, but I just don’t want to give him more work when he is already dedicating so much time to programming.”
“Hey, a relationship should be based on trust and love and helping one another. I mean, my wife always came to me for help, and I went to her when I needed help as well. I need to prep for lecture now”
“Aww. How adorable. Wait, what’s your name ?”
“My name is Paul. Nice to meet you.What’s your name?”
“My name is Wenyu!”
- I stepped outside to see his name tag.
“Oh wait so you are professor Kessenich?”
“Oh, I prefer to go by Paul. Students only call me professor when they need something from me…You’re my friend! Friends call each other by first names.”
“Awwwweee. That’s so sweet of you to consider me your friend !! I’m so flattered.”
“Oh please, I’m just as flattered to have a friend like you.”
O(∩_∩)O Yay!! It was a hella good morning to make friends with a professor !!!! As each day passes by, my confidence and skills in math 215 is boosting !!! I’m excited for this course !!! Shall I do well !!!
Dear God and universe, thank you so much for bringing together the Intervarsity Christian Fellowship family at the diag this afternoon. I had the most amazing time connecting with and meeting new believers. It’s so amazing to see people from my high school to be at the stands handing out flyers. My faith in the Lord was strengthened and I’m so thankful to have volunteered at the stands to represent ICF. God is the greatest, and shall i meet and inspire more believers of Christ’s. Thank you; thank you; thank you !!!!
So after overcoming a long and weary jet lag and a long and weary viral infection I went back to church today !!!!! It feels so amazing to re-connect with my fellow believers at H2O church, in Ann Arbor and in America.
Because the Rackham buidling is closed for holidays, we had our first service at the union. WOW SO MUCH SWAGGG AND FUN TO CATCH UP WITH ALL OF MY FRANDS.
Ok, I’m gonna shift my casual YOLOSWAG tone back to my formal tone now.
My pastor, Nino Guarisco, shared a very reflective statement with all of us this morning, and whether you are a believer, no matter how old you are, it is a statement for you to reflect on.
“The type of friends that you make and the level of priority you place on your relationship with Jesus Christ will determine the type of person you will become while at the University of Michigan (and at any place).”
I read somewhere that by just looking at the 5 closest friends that one has, any person can tell his future prospects. I have a lot to say on this, but because of privacy reasons, I’m not gonna share anything on this blog. I’m just gonna leave it here that if you choose to surround yourself with positivism, your whole life is going to be positive, while if you surround yourself with negativity, most of your life is going to be negative.
In the end, a huge “Thank You” to God for bringing together my fellow believers at H2O to worship under one roof!! It’s amazing to see your light shine upon us and shall we love one another forever !!! Thank you; thank you; thank you !!!